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stay in the present
Aug. 16th, 2018 03:01 pmI noticed as of lately I've had a lot more teenage fans commenting on my instagram posts which got me thinking....
Do you remember when you were a teenager? Being a teenager is like playing a sport or game for the first time. You don't really know the rules or the mechanisms of the game at first. You might not end up learning every rule or mechanism of the game but you slowly get the hang of it. Then with practice you start to enjoy it more...
Honestly? I didn't do anything crazy when I was a teenager. I didn't lash out against anyone. I pushed back against my parents when they applied to a modeling contest without telling me and pushed back against them when they sent me to Nagoya. But I didn't rebel against them. I didn't rebel against my teachers when I thought I hated modeling. I didn't run from it. I just kept going.
So that's how my teenage years went along. I started working when I was 16 years old. I moved to Tokyo when I was 18. I started living overseas when I was 19. And that's how my teenage years ended.
And right before I turned 21 years old I had this huge epiphany. Was this right? Was I ready to be an adult? Did I waste my teenage years on working? I thought I'd missed the fun of being a teenager and couldn't help but feel some regret...I was 21 and still didn't know who I was. I blamed it on my lack of initiative as a teenager for a long time.
But I really feel for people who are living their teenage years during a time like this. Even though it's easier to feel connected it's just as easy to live with tunnel vision and get exposed to things people only want you to see. It isn't "easier" to find out who you are.
I'm 30 now and I'm still figuring things out. The regrets I had about my teenage years aren't...as bad as I once thought because life is all about trial and error. You try and try and see what works and what doesn't. Don't regret what's in the past and what's been done. Live within the present.
Do you remember when you were a teenager? Being a teenager is like playing a sport or game for the first time. You don't really know the rules or the mechanisms of the game at first. You might not end up learning every rule or mechanism of the game but you slowly get the hang of it. Then with practice you start to enjoy it more...
Honestly? I didn't do anything crazy when I was a teenager. I didn't lash out against anyone. I pushed back against my parents when they applied to a modeling contest without telling me and pushed back against them when they sent me to Nagoya. But I didn't rebel against them. I didn't rebel against my teachers when I thought I hated modeling. I didn't run from it. I just kept going.
So that's how my teenage years went along. I started working when I was 16 years old. I moved to Tokyo when I was 18. I started living overseas when I was 19. And that's how my teenage years ended.
And right before I turned 21 years old I had this huge epiphany. Was this right? Was I ready to be an adult? Did I waste my teenage years on working? I thought I'd missed the fun of being a teenager and couldn't help but feel some regret...I was 21 and still didn't know who I was. I blamed it on my lack of initiative as a teenager for a long time.
But I really feel for people who are living their teenage years during a time like this. Even though it's easier to feel connected it's just as easy to live with tunnel vision and get exposed to things people only want you to see. It isn't "easier" to find out who you are.
I'm 30 now and I'm still figuring things out. The regrets I had about my teenage years aren't...as bad as I once thought because life is all about trial and error. You try and try and see what works and what doesn't. Don't regret what's in the past and what's been done. Live within the present.
